卸载 B 站的这几天 A Few Days After Uninstalling Bilibili
卸载 B 站的这几天，我深刻地感受到了惯性的威力。
这几天出现了很多次打开手机、乱划屏幕的行为。以前这个动作的下一步几乎固定是点开 B 站，然后开始刷。现在 B 站卸载了，反倒感觉不知所措。
甚至今天早起，因为没有 B 站，我点开了"对应的替代物"小红书。可能是因为我之前刷小红书的频率并不高，点进去的那一刻，我突然意识到自己的行为有多么恐怖——
很多时候，我并没有真的想刷什么，只是身体已经记住了这套动作。
由此可见，刷短视频，真的完全是身体在帮你做决定，而不是你的大脑。
你被控制了。
身体记住了你的惯性。
我现在要做的，就是让身体适应这个新变化。
给身体一点时间，等新惯性养成。
— 5 月 24 日补记
我又给 B 站下回来了。
我发现虽然我卸载了 B 站，但日常工作其实并没有比之前提升多少。
我只是为了"不看视频"而不看视频——早上我依旧会点开社交媒体软件，只不过不是 B 站，而是小红书了。
相比"把 B 站直接卸载"，我觉得更重要的是：这次经历让我意识到了 身体惯性。
我只需要在每次想点击 B 站之前，意识到自己这个动作，然后调试就好。
最简单的一个方式：增加其他有意义的活动，来压缩这个所谓的刷视频时间。
你可以把上面这些当成我没做到的借口。但我也确实获得了不少启发，总体对这个实验过程还是很满意的。
In the few days since I uninstalled Bilibili, I've felt the sheer weight of habit.
Several times these past few days, I've caught myself picking up my phone and aimlessly swiping the screen. In the past, the next step in that motion was almost always the same: open Bilibili, start scrolling. Now that Bilibili is gone, I'm suddenly at a loss.
Even this morning — since Bilibili wasn't there — I opened its "equivalent substitute," Xiaohongshu. Maybe because I had never been a heavy Xiaohongshu user, the moment I tapped in, I suddenly saw just how unsettling my own behavior was —
A lot of the time, I didn't actually want to scroll through anything. My body had simply memorized the motion.
Which tells you something: scrolling short videos is, entirely, your body making the decisions for you. Not your brain.
You've been hijacked.
Your body has memorized your inertia.
What I need to do now is let my body adapt to this new state.
Give it some time. Wait for a new habit to take root.
— Update, May 24
I've reinstalled Bilibili.
Here's what I noticed: even with Bilibili gone, my daily output hadn't really improved. I was just not watching videos for the sake of not watching videos — every morning I'd still tap open some social app; it just wasn't Bilibili anymore, it was Xiaohongshu.
Compared to "uninstalling Bilibili outright," what I think actually matters more is this: the experiment made me see body-level inertia for what it is.
All I really need is to notice the motion the moment I'm about to tap Bilibili — and then tune from there.
The simplest way: add other meaningful activities, and let them squeeze out the so-called scrolling time.
You can take all of the above as my excuse for not following through. But I really did get a lot out of it. Overall, I'm still pretty happy with this little experiment.